“life will be better in spring”

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sian ~ tmr till next thurs, gina is not in sg, she will be at taiwan.
awww im gonna miss her badly =/

Dear Gina,
enjoy your trip and miss us! we will definitely miss you damn lots! =(
Take care uh!
without you, i confirm will get bullied by Ziying and Eileen =( *SOB*
but don worry, when you come back i wont complain to you. hehehehe! =)


your friend,
Joanne =)
26.04.11

ytd weather was so hot!
i was sweating in com lab and in class!
the com lab aircon no wind one, plus im sitting at one corner. -.-
then in class ppl snatch our place, then we have to sit other place which is hot !
so hot till i don even have the mood to do my work.
lucky sch end early as our SBM teacher is not coming.
played heart attack game after sch, and was thinking where should go. but in the end we decided to go home.

walked pass my god sis shop when going home, then she ask me to go eat mac with her.
after we eat, i go buy food for my sis as she is at home. =)
at night went to nex for dinner with sis as mom is not cooking.
we ate Ajisen Ramen =) then went to fairprice to buy ice cream, then popular to buy pen and lastly, food court to buy food for mom.
then cab home =D
today run 2.4, i failed hahaha!
as i was all the way walking with Seri, we was happy that it rained =D and it feels so good to run and walk under the rain.
actually wanna continue doing that but teacher don allow.
after that went rain got abit smaller, we all went home except for ziying as she is waiting for her friend to go home tgt.

that's all
CIAO~! ^^

btw people, please take good care of yourself as there's a virus, it's like flu and cough but it takes more than 1 week to heal.

Whenever I walk pass you, I longer feel happy/excited. Seems like im alr over you.

- Quotes and Interesting post from Twitter -

♥ Everyone can make you Smile.. but it takes that one special person to make you Happy.

♥ Love is possible after friendship, but friendship is not possible after love.
♥ hates to keep on contacting someone, cause as time goes by, you wouldn't know what to say to that person when you want to contact that person back.

♥ Her life just stopped when he left her. But you can't see with that smile on her face.
♥ A friend would let you copy their homework but a best friend would say "I didn't do it either!


ytd was a long day for me. So tired !
&& sch ended early, around 3pm but our cca starts at 5pm.
so we decided to eat at canteen then go to library for aircon.
we wanted to play monopoly cards but we scared cant play so we ask the librarian there, she say can play except for poker cards.
played the first round, kok ping came in, then he say xin fa they all ps him. after that he went to use com.
and went my friends and i are saying about my stomach, kok ping was walking towards our table then we all burst out laughing. HAHA!
cca end at 7pm, called dad to fetch me home. then my two friends also want have to free ride but too bad my dad's car can only fetch 1 person and it's ME =D

today went out with parents and sis cause stay at home very hot so decided to go bugis shopping.
and mom wasnt happy cause she din bring her card so she cant get the things she want =(
but after that her mood came back alr =)
we went to nex to eat pastamania!
then went to arcade as my dad wants. then we all walk past a shop that sell hair accessories.
bought some of it. ^^

after went to buy present for cousin and uncle as tmr is their birthday. =)
went home after that. =D

enjoyed my day even though alot of things happened.


today im feeling so restless and moodless.
after last nigth, i've decided i cant keep on pretending that i don know.
somehow i think it's me who caused my friends to be restless and moodless. so sorry to them... =(
as i cant really smile...

anyway, sch as usual nothing much. it's just that we played monopoly more today. and i got tricked by gina, eileen and ziying early in the morning. but lucky i din believe them. =)
today S&W run under the HOT HOT sun! almost die under the sun while running ! =/

after that went to canteen to buy milo, and the milo is SOOOO COLD! I LIKE IT!!! =D
played monopoly before going home.
reached home, bathed out still feeling so HOT!!

shall post Monday Couple video when they tgt! =D
Monday Couple Jjang!! ^^

-Quotes and interesting post from Twitter-


♥ I did not change it was just you weren't close enough to me to know.


♥  *sees an annoying person you don like* thinking: don see me, please don see me. *trying to hide* Annoying person: hey ! How are you?
♥ Being afraid to lose someone even though he/she is not yours.


♥ People say you don't know what you've got until it's gone.. The truth is, you knew what you had. You just never thought you will lose it.


♥ Fake smiles hide the deepest sadness.


din go out these two days, was staying at home watching Running Man. =)
All of them are so funny! XD
Monday Couple is so sweet and funny!
&& JoongKi also like Jihyo!!

found Monday Couple and Song Song Couple ( JoongKi & Jihyo) fanpage in fb. ^^
but Monday Couple only have 47 likes with 1 photo, and Song Song couple have 138 likes with lots of photos. *SOB* Monday Couple should have lots of likes and photos mah! They say sweet and they like each other!
hahah photo took by gary ^^

triangle love, hahahah!



& i also made a promise to myself.
everything will be fine from now. I'm not going to cry anymore.
going smile and laugh like nothing is wrong.


-Quotes and interesting posts from Twitter-

♥ im saying things that is so different words from the words in my heart.

♥ If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

♥ A friend is that knows you as you are, understand where you have been, accept what you have become, and still, able to take all your attitudes.

♥ It's not the goodbye that hurts, It's knowing I'll never get another hello.

♥ Nobody wants to hear this, but sometimes the person you want most, is the person you're best without.




♥ When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.


♥ They say "they will be there for you", but they are nowhere to be found when you need them the most.

♥ Wherever I look at you, I feel a sudden sadness, because I know you are someone who could never be mine

 ♥ Everyday i smile and pretend nothings wrong, its called putting everything aside and simply being Strong.



sch as usual nothing much, is just that i got more tired and sleepy than last time.
sch is getting boring~!
but lucky ytd and today get to go home early! =D
and tmr sch start late! AWESOME~

♥ Not telling you because i still wanna be your friend and not the one you are always hiding from.


went out with ziying ytd.
was at nex with her the whole afternoon.
ate Pastamania > walk > watch Rio (movie) > Mac > home.

- Quotes and intersting posts from Twitter -

♥ Relationship without trust is like a car without an engine. It won't work.

♥ Everyone has bad times. Everyone has problems. But don't sacrifice all the good times for them.

♥ I'm insecure, I break things, I don't have the latest fashion, I don't have perfect hair, I make mistakes, but that's just me

♥ Protect her, love her, kiss her, hold her, smile with her, laugh with her. but dont make her fall for you if you dont plan to catch her.

♥ Hate people to twist and turns their words !

♥ Smiles mean nothing, look in someone's eyes and you will see the pain in disguise.

♥ I hate it when people lie, especially when you know the truth about what they are lying about.

♥ I may not be perfect. I may not be everyone's 1st choice, but I'm ME and I don't pretend to be anyone else.

♥ Dear Students, I know when you're texting. Seriously, no one just looks down at their crotch and smiles. Sincerely, teacher.

♥ Forget what hurt you in the past. But never forget what it taught you.

♥ If you're going to be two-faced at least make one of them pretty.



ytd did some dicussion about sbm project 2 with ziying and eileen.
played monopoly deal after that, followed by late dinner at nex. =)

today went back to secondary school for award presentation day.
saw some of friends there. =)
was talking to friend while waiting for our turn to go up stage, and im nervous when it was going to our turn.
when im on stage, i feel so ps as everyone is looking at me !
and im so afraid that i would fall but lucky i did not. Phew!

friend all ciao after taking the prize. and i was alone, and its so damn bored but lucky got friends to msg. =)
after that went to thai restaurant for dinner.
after  that home sweet home.

that's all .
Ciao~! ^^


ytd ziying and i went to nex for lunch and after that headed to my house to do projects.
but we only did cs roleplay cause we don know how to do sbm. after doing cs decided to do lifeskill but the portal don allow us to go in -.-
so played maple as ziying is waiting for me to lvl up.
at around 6, sent ziying to bus stop, when she's up the bus then i leave.
today early in the morning, someone is alr make me so pissed !
seriously i hate them! there's no way i stop them from what they are doing.
when they win they would say it's the past, but when they lose, they will just keep on dragging the past out!
is like WTF?!
now is like my fault for forgetting things, SERIOUSLY is forgetting a CRIME?!
like im the only one who forget not them!
if want me to remember things then ask that BITCH to remember and tell me when larhs! FUCK!

to me now the only place i can vent my anger is on blog and twitter.
fb is now i say fake things. not to let anyone know what happened to me and not to let my friends worried.
- Qoutes & some funny/ interesting post from twitter -

♥ Saying sorry doesn't mean anything. It's how you learn from your mistake & how you treat the person afterward.

♥ Everytime I find the key to happiness, someone changes the lock.

♥ Just because I dont talk about my problems, doesnt mean they dont exist.

♥ Best friends are people who make your problems their problems, just so you don't have to go through them alone.

♥ Just because you're a smartass doesn't mean you can underestimate me.

♥ The truth hurts, but it doesn't kill. Lies may please, but they don't heal.

♥ When you're single all you see are happy couples. When your in a relationship all you see is happy people who are single.

♥ A relationship without trust is like an iPod without music, theres no point of having one.  

♥ Facebook is where you lie to your friends. Twitter is where you're honest with complete strangers.

♥ It's hard to trust someone the second time around after they already gave you one reason not to trust them.

♥ Making a million friends is not a miracle. The miracle is to make a friend who will stand by you when milions are against you.

♥ I Luv walking in the rain bcoz nobody knows I'm crying.

♥ Sometimes you have to forget what's gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to what's coming next.

♥ In school, you're taught a lesson & then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson.

♥ Life brings tears, smiles & memories. The tears dry, the smiles fade, but the memories last forever.


Last night, my heart hurts so much that i cried. It wasnt the first and last night that i cried.
My heart hurt so much that like im gonna lose something precious to me, like the way how i lose my grandma.
People around me told me to stop thinking about it, but my heart just keeps on thinking.
No matter what i do, no matter where i am, i could always think of my grandma.
Everyone told my grandma to rest in peace, except for me. Because im just so hurt to ask her rest in peace.
After all, this is still too sudden for me to accept.

Now no one can help me, only time and myself is able to help me walk out of this darkness.
But i gave up on helping myself. I've been putting on a smile. But... now i don think i can smile anymore.

Whenever i see knives, i would think how would i cut my hand and how would the blood flows.
And i am always stopping myself to think that way. Because there's still someone out there, who needed me.
To make myself feel better, i hit the wall and scratches myself to feel the pain. After feeling the pain, i would feel better.
I have a feeling that im going to have depression.
I'm afraid...
I wish there's someone to pull me out.

Whenever i cries at night, grandma would come to my dream, is like cheering me up but now she don come to my dream to cheer me up anymore.
And it's time i let go, so i should say "rest in peace, ah ma..."
hope i can really let it go.

I wish i can sleep forever... forever don wake up... cause being awake hurts alot...


woke up at 9 plus ytd but my body seems to be stuck to my bed...
forced myself to get off my bed at 10am if not im gonna be late as im meeting them at 11.20am @ bishan, mahattan.
before i go bath, i switched on my com to charge my ipod.

when i bath out is alr 10.20am.
rushing to get ready and downloading songs.
was supposed to leave house at 10.45, but i leave out at 10.55am
cause i miss my bus so i was thinking to leave house late.
at opp the bus stop i saw my bus !
too bad, there's too much car so i cant cross the road.
so waited for my bus, deciding to take 103 to mrt station but i would real early if i take train. so i kept waiting for 156.

11.20am, im still at that bus stop waiting for bus. -.-
gave up waiting so just took whatever bus that comes first to mrt station.

at mrt escalator, saw my train close doors and leave.
so total i miss 2 bus and 1 train. what a great day to start with uh.
and finally reached bishan. called my friends to ask which table they are but she din answer my phone.
so decided to just walk in and find.
and lucky i spotted them. =D

had fish &chips and ice lemon. damn full.
but eileen still not full so she order another fish & chips.
after eating we walked to sch for cca.
stayed in sch for 3hr 30mins.
we left at 4pm. walked to Each a cup store to buy drinks.
after buying we wanted to walk to library but our drinks cant go in so we drank finish our drinks.
while drinking and talking, eileen saw a string of hair in her drink. so disgusting!

after that we were find dustbin to throw our drinks before going into the library.
went in library to find a place for us to do our project.
but there's no space so we decided to go to the childrens' section. and there's plenty of space.
seated down for awhile, me & gina started to smell someone farted! SOOO DAMN SMELLY LARHS!!

after that we saw a cute boy! he soooo cute that gina and me fell in love to that boy. XD
before he leave, he gave us a flying kiss! OH MY! my heart just melted by that kiss!
we left not long after that, eileen stayed at library as she is waiting for someone.

that's all.
ciao~! ^^
- Quotes from twitter and me -

♥ Leave is a simple word in dictionary, but in life is the most powerful word in life, so powerful that your heart would even feel the pain like being stabbed.


♥ I'm Sitting Here Trying To Keep My Composure, Knowing Inside I'm Broken and Tore Up.

♥ Believe that God puts people in your life for a reason, and removes them from your life for a better reason.

♥ My head screamed no. My heart whispered yes. Reality told me not to. But hope told me to try.

♥ You should know that "ILY" Means Im leaving You.. which Means If You Really Love Someone you would take the time to spell it out.

♥ GUYS: You can never change her past but you can create the most beautiful future that any woman has ever seen.



Sat, 2 April.
fall asleep while waiting for jiaen & zihui to call me.
at 2plus zihui called and i was so rush to get my things ready, so rush that i forgotten to change my spect to the new one. =/
took a straight bus to far east.
went to a salon as zihui wanna cut hair and while zihui is at salon, me and jiaen went to walk around to look for nice bags. saw one at red code but is very similar to one of my spoiled bag =/
then suddenly jiaen remembered about friendship band, and just nice zihui called us.
in the end bought a blue mixed colour friendship band.


walked around far east alittle longer then zihui suggested to go cineleisure to look for bags.
leg hurts after walking to cineleisure. and while walking to cineleisure we saw patricia! its been a long time i've seen her, miss her damn lots!
look around and still cant find nice bags! so left with no choice we just walk in to every shop to see, and after a few shops we saw a bag is nice and is white but i don really like it cause i alr have lots of bag is in white colour.
then jiaen suggested to go flea to take a look, and after all there isnt any bags!
went back to the previous shop, thinking whether to buy that bag. while thinking jiaen saw a nicer bag and i decided to buy that bag.


and finally we had our dinner at scape, sakae sushi!
me and zihui wasnt able to finish our food, cause so damn lots.
went to walk around and jiaen notice that me and zihui's friendship band fall off! wanted to find it back but jiaen they all say can buy again. hope nothing will happen.

went to new look before heading home.
tried two heels, the first heels was so uncomfortable and hurts my ankle! but the second one is so comfy and nice! wanted to but its too hight and ex, and i wasnt very good at wearing heels =/


after that train to amk and bus home after that.


Sun, 3 April.
woke up at 10 plus, but out of my bed and 11am.
bathed and changed to get ready to go out and meet mom at toapayoh with sis.
went to optical to see spect as my sis wanna have one.

went to meet my godmom at coffee shop then headed to uncle's house tgt but sis headed back home cause she wanna sent jacky back to chen su lan.

stayed at uncle's house for couples of hours. cause my uncle they all wanted to go singapore flyer for dinner.
ate bak ku teh, ice kachang, meat and fish ball, satay bee hoon and yong tao fu.
our table is full of food!
walked around before heading home.

that's all.
ciao~! ^^
-Qoutes from twitter-


♥ Laugh like you have never been hurt, cause every moment you spend upset is a moment of happiness you will never get back.


♥ Whenever i cant hold my tears, i would just pretend that my eyes are itchy.


♥ Everyone changes but not the one in the photos.

♥ A smile is the best makeup any girl can wear.  


♥ Sometimes you just have to smile, pretend everything's okay, hold back the tears and just walk away.


♥ Sometimes friends just can't understand what I'm feeling, that's why I wanna be alone.

♥ U.G.L.Y = (U)nique (G)orgeous (L)ovely (Y)ou